2016 - A Rough Year

2016 has been one of the roughest years for me.  It was a year where in the beginning thought that things were going to be awesome in how I finally got to move to the SoHo/Hyde Park area of Tampa (even if it meant crashing on my friend's couch for much of the year), how I was going to go on the Model Season Bootcamp with RSD, how the year was off to a really good start based on what happened over New Year's, etc.  I thought when it came to dating and pickup and sex, there was no way I could fail and I was going to have one of the best years ever in that regard - I was going to pull girls left and right and I was going to be more engaged.  What really happened though was the exact opposite.  Around April, circumstances caused me to quit pickup for good after finding out that what I was doing was a huge waste of time, it was counterproductive, and I was just working too hard on trying to hook up with some girl.  That led me to do other things such as focus on workouts, read all the time at Starbucks, and drive all the way to Orlando every weekend to go to a dance social.

Things also changed at the venues.  They all but did away with karaoke, and latin nights are all but non-existent.

But alas, the year is not over yet.  So what I've decided to do now that I'm moving to a new apartment in Hyde Park with my own bed and everything, I decided to go out four nights a week and just be there.  I won't approach any women unless I feel like I absolutely should; in other words there won't be any forced approaches like there were in the past.  The thing I can't control is how a girl reacts to me.  I can't control what a girl thinks of me.  What I CAN control however is something like how long I plan to stay out, and that is one of the biggest weak areas I deal with  Afterall, 5-7 hours of doing almost nothing and being exposed in a loud, uncomfortable environment IS very difficult and I know it's going to take getting used to.  I know it's going to take a lot of practice.  I know at first I'm not going to want to do it.  I know that I'm going to want to leave at the first sign of trouble, the first sign of boredom, the first sign I feel like I need to read or eat/drink something, etc.  What I fail to realize however is that by leaving, I'm missing out.  I'm sure I missed many chances at banging a girl by simply leaving too early or just not showing up at all.

This is what I'm going to do for at least a month.  Going to go one month at 3-4 days per week.  Let's see what happens in a month.  If things don't change, I'll go for two months.  Whatever happens, I cannot fail myself.